Missing you

Trust/honesty and respect and attraction build a relationship. Values sustain it. Do I miss my exs? Yes, some, more than others. Do I miss my current bf when he is away from me? Time will tell, the heart will ache when we are apart. The waiting will be an abyss. When I see him, does my heart skip a beat and race a mile a min? Does he make my world a better place? Do I long to be near him? Do I long to hear his voice? Do I long to be intimate with him? To feel him inside of me? Do I remember him, what he smells like, taste like? Questions that I must put to the test.

BBQ galore

This past week and end were spectacular. It started when we, my sis, bf and I, discovered this all-you-can-eat restaurant, Espetus Churrascaria, in the City (SFO), on Market and Gough. A Carnivore delight, Brazilian style, where the tender skewer meats-pork, chicken, prime beef, lamb, shrimp, (pineapple)- are circulated table-to-table and sliced off with a saber, by gauchos. The cost is $28 per person. We also ordered caipirinha, a Brazilian cachaca white rum daiquiri drink, followed by creme de leite dessert. Yummy! To top off the nite, I took my bf to my fav Karoake hangout (I have only taken one other person there). We had a blast! The performers were hilarious! :) The next day, I had another abstract due for a scientific meeting in September. I guess this will be good practice, since I will be transferring to Regulatory Affairs (working with FDA) come this fall. By Friday, work was play, when we had a summer picnic and baseball game with co-workers. Friday nite was delivery of card and orchids for a friend whose mother recently passed away. Thai food was consumed rather rapidly before we attended Pinter's play at Stanford Pigott Theater. I fell asleep during the performance. ZZZZZzzzzzz!! (I hope the concert I am going to this coming week will be mucho better!) Saturday afternoon we headed towards Vn Tully Town for some authentic Bun Bo Hue, dessert, and Vn music. Later we went to see The Wedding Crasher, overall entertaining movie. I also rented D.E.B.s, In Good Company, and Be Cool. Obviously, I have lots of time to spare early morning or late at nite. Sunday was a visit to a friends house for 10am breakfast, then mass service with EJ, lobster prep and cooking in spicy tamarind sauce, and mini-golfing with my cousins into the twilight. The wrap up was playing BJ with EJ. I ended the nite with a call to my father and to my bf to wish them a good nite. I am grateful for my wonderful life, full of love and happiness. I take stock by summarizing and thanking God for a memorable, safe and drama free weekend.

The questions that popped into my consciousness this weekend...
Why do I feel so lost when I attended mass service?
Have I lost touch with my God and his teachings?
Why do I shy away from human contact and deep feelings of intimacy?
When you first meet someone, you say hi, how are you, you make mental note of what make them different and if you want them to be a part of your life. With spending time together talking, sharing meals together, inviting them out for outings, introducing them to your family; they become an integral part of your life. You know what they are like, what they like or not, what are their up and down days. You give them love and support. You treat them with respect and sensitivity. You finally call them your friend. I have two new friends, one Vn and one Indian. They are sweet women, who are sensitive and kind, and we share our lives and trust each other.