when one door closes another door opens

People come and go, leaving footprints in your life. Some cause chaos, others just fade away. Are we aware of such losses? In the past year, after traveling to Japan, I lost T. all the while R. continues to be my friend. In a bizarre way B. is now my online friend while J. is more real. Aaron whom I met at the Cafe and Robin are certainly real. Cam comes and goes. Finally, it is L. that I am disappointed in. Although I have only known her a short period of time, we gave it a go, but we didnt mesh. Then she just broke it off; it felt weird. So I must grapple with what she has done to me. Like she pulled the rug from under me, without warning. She invites me to all these events; she invites herself to my house. Then one day she announces that she no longer wants to be my friend. Shameful and unaware. I have only met one other person like this. She leaves chaos in the wake and trambles on my being. My soul hurts.

Last nite, I had a long talk with S about reaching spiritual, emotional, and physical connection with someone. I have always believe in this, but not really said it out loud. It just happens, and when it does, it means you are in love. The other person has reached out, taken hold of you, and connected with you on all three levels. They utterly and completely understand your being. They are your soulmate, someone you identify with and morph as one: the unspoken words, the understanding, the presence, and the word which build and beautify your being.

Now, walks in Mia. Shazam. like a lightening bolt. her writing moves me, her psyche so far probes mine. we are conversing via email without having met. can you connect emotionally and spiritually without meeting ? Is that what the internet is all about? is it even real?

Summer thus Far

Where has the summer gone???

Summer kicked off with May/June activities: Starting a new job. Finishing the remodeling of the dining room. Going to Guerneville for Women's weekend. Neutered Dotsie. Having a bbq at my house on Memorial Weekend then to Napa Vallely to visit Amorosa Castille with Jana and Minna. We also went to Oyster Farm, where we ran out of gas, and visited Pt Reyes Winery. Thuy, Jana, Rachael and I went to the Stern Grove Festival on Sunday, June 17. Flying down to San Diego, to attend Cop's High School Graduation, going to the zoo with Nathan and Cop and celebrating Pin's 23rd birthday. It was good to see my aunts, Don and his wife, Donna, and Huyen. For Gay Pride on June 23, I was riding on the motorbike with San. This Friday is Gay Color Tour Concert before the July 4th Camping trip at Kings Canyon NP with Rachael and GLS group. For July, more activities: installation of a new entry door, remodeling my kitchen and backyard buildup. Diving for abalone July 8th. Making a minimovie, training Dotsie on Basic manners, and more training for myself on swimming, running, and biking. Yep, I am doing a triathlon, specifically, the Treasure Island Triathlon in Nov. I have 5months to train and workout. Yoga and stretching will help. I will keep updating my summer events as the summer progresses. So many things to do, so lil time.