Man's greatest need is to achieve, yet it is not only the end result but the quest. As i traveled on this path of life, i would like to say that i make a contribution to society, working to make a difference by doing research on potential drugs to conquer cancer. Currently, i am working on a drug treatment for prostrate cancer.

But this past month or so, i feel so lonely, like nothing matters. Perhaps, my soul calls out and wants warmth. I read and contemplate and fill my depleted vessel.

Quotes from Helen Keller:

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet.

Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.

Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn whatever state I am in, therein to be content.

I do not want the peace which passes understanding, I want the understanding which bring peace.

Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

Security does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it.

Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than exposure.

Literature is my Utopia.

Here I am not disenfranchised. No barrier of the senses shuts me out from the sweet, gracious discourses of my book friends. They talk to me without embarrassment or awkwardness.

Many persons have a wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness.

It is not attained through self-gratification but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.

Never bend your head. Hold it high. Look the world straight in the eye.

No pessimist ever discovered the secret of the stars or sailed an uncharted land, or opened a new doorway for the human spirit.

One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar.

People do not like to think. If one thinks, one must reach conclusions.

Conclusions are not always pleasant.

Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything good in the world.

Smell is a potent wizard that transports you across thousand of miles and all the years you have lived.

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.

They must be felt within the heart.

We could never learn to be brave and patient, if there were only joy in the world.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.

When we do the best that we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another.

The highest result of education is tolerance.

Science may have found a cure for most evils; but it has found no remedy for the worst of them all - the apathy of human beings.

August 4th, 2007 weekend.

This past weekend :

Friday nite, upset for being stood up by S, i went home tired. J asked me out to Varnish for drinks and look at artwork; she had a mango sake and i had a vanilla martini. Afterwards we went to a nearby club. She offered me a quickie, but i declined and went to S--I needed my stuff back. She became upset. We talked and made up. (i am not sure how much more i can take of her immaturity).

Sat we breakfast in Rockridge, stopped by Godspeed bar, in Oakland. This place is the bomb! motorcycles and religious icons filled the room, not to mention the tattoo parlor, and upstair all-you-can eat breakfast bar. That evening i went into the city to meet up with Rach and watch Stardust. I liked the movie, bec it was magical and heartfelt.

Sunday started with shopping at Home Depot, Big Lots, and Ross for rubbermaid tool shed, wet vacuum cleaner, and metal shelves. Billy had his shots and needs his Newark license renewal. I cleaned house and then went swimming at Sillimans waterplayground. We ended the day with dinner and watching "The Last King of Scotland." (Again, its mostly her agenda).