I Have Learned So Much
I
Have
Learned
So much from God
That I can no longer
call myself
A Christian, a Hindu, a Muslim, a Buddhist, a Jew.
The Truth has shared so much of Itself with me
That I can no longer call myself
A man, a woman, an angel,

Or even a pure
Soul.

Love has
befriended me so completely
It has turned me into ashes
And freed Me
Of every concept and image
my mind has ever known.

All the Hemispheres
Leave the familiar for a while.
Let your senses and bodies stretch out
Like a welcomed season
Onto the meadows and shores and hills.
Open up to the Roof.
Make a new water-mark on your excitement and love.
Like a blooming night flower,
Bestow your vital fragrance of happiness and giving
Upon our intimate assembly.
Change rooms in your mind for a day.
All the hemispheres in existence
Lie beside an equator.
In your heart
Greet Yourself
In your thousand other forms
As you mount the hidden tide and travel
back home.
All the hemispheres in heaven
are sitting around a fire
chatting
while stitching themselves together
Into the Great Circle inside of
You.

Let Thought Become Your
Beautiful Lover
Let thought become the beautiful Woman.
Cultivate your mind and heart to that depth
That it can give you everything
A warm body can.
Why just keep making love with God's childform
When the Friend Himself is standing
before us
So open-armed?
My dear,
Let prayer become your beautiful Lover
And become free,
Become free of this whole world.

Je ne sais quoi?

As I sat down for dinner with San and Thuy at the Elephant Bar in Cupertino, I could still hear the ringing words..."why are you average?" San asks me. Thuy says, "I am average."

What is the definition of average? common, typical, usual.

One goes thru life. Once passionate. Then a rhythm settles in. Moments come when we are meant to shine. To go beyond ourselves and become exceptional, not settling for average.
This rhythm is like a harmonic scale. We hear our sounds, the beat from within. We hear our calling. We must answer it. We are no longer average we have a certain something-je ne sais quoi.

Quotable quotes of 2007

"In Iran we don't have homosexuals like in your country." --Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad, on the Iranian gay rights agenda.

"That's some nappy-headed ho's there," --Don Imus, on the Rutger's basketball women's team.

"I think as far as the adverse impact on the nation around the world, this administration has been the worst in history." --Hopeful former President Jimmy Carter, on GW Bush's performance.

"I personally believe that U.S. Americans are unable to do so because some people out there in our nation don't have maps and I believe that our education like such as in South Africa and Iraq and everywhere like such as and I believe that they should our education over here in the U.S. should help the U.S. or should help South Africa and should help Iraq and the Asian countries so we will be able to build up our future for us." --Laura Upton, South Carolina Miss Teenage America, when she was asked why one-fifth of Americans are unable to locate the U.S. on a map.

New Year's Resolutions

It’s the New Year 2008. Although M. Gomez says it would get worse, like the chaos theory, i feel this year will be better than last. For the holidays, my family (sans San) got together for Christmas with Vn lunch and dinner like we do every year. It’s not so much about the gifts as being together to share the love and warmth around the holidays. As I drove home from my fathers place I felt the year ending on a beautiful note, like twinkling tinkling of B. concerto.

Of course, San had to spoil it by texting me and asking me (half assedly) where I was and I, not knowingly that she was also on the freeway driving home. Later I found out she went to Annie's house for xmas (some girl she has a crush on). First she had the nerve to spoil my Thxgiving holiday; then she asks if she could join her ex and her new gf for Xmas on the east coast, (thank god, the girl had the sense to turn her down). As a xmas present she came over to pick up her stuff and so we can separate. She brought me a bottle of beer and flowers (hmmm red neck, ya think?!!) I gave her books and a t-shirt from Amsterdam. We talked, made out, and got back together. This is getting ridiculous.

New Year Eve rolls around and I suggested we go to a comedy show starring M. Gomez at the Victoria Theater. She wanted to invite her friends, Sylvia and Julie, so I invited my friends, Rachael and Thuy. After the show, we went to a bar to countdown to NYE. I spent the night with San and the next day we went to Golden Gate Fields in Berkeley to see horse racing.

Here we are in the New Year, 2008. I sound so negative, but I am not normally. So I will make some NY resolution for myself (nothing for personal life-the zing ie romance has gone out of me)

Self Improvement
1. read 5 nonfiction books and 5 fiction books per month
2. work out daily at home to gain muscles
3. take architectural design classes at ohlone college
4. increase my retirement fund and earning potential

House
1. house improvement: heating and kitchen upgrade this year 2008
2. garden design to make it look more rustic and tuscany
3. build a retaining wall and a waterfountain.
4. get a roommate and some more income

Work
1. Work harder and have frequent self checks
2. See the big picture and become a better presenter
3. Discover my talents and passions