Last week, had a cold so i stayed home from work. this morning when i returned to work, found out that my good friend and coworker, CC, had died last week. Cause unknown.
it is strange but i partially feel guilty about not taking care of him. he was a great Chinese old guy who i trusted and admired. he grew up in communist Taiwan and dedicated his older life to taking care of his stepdaughter when his wife of two years died suddenly. I shared an office with him for the past 1.5years, listening to his lifes philosophy and telling me exactly was on his mind. his work presentations were always thorough with outbursts comments that was at times shocking. he would look up popular magazines and tell me which celebrities was in the headlines. I would tease him about how i am looking for a 99 year old man to marry with lots of money. and whenever he saw me he would tell me he spotted a Chinese guy looking for me. His philosophy of life was, "you get what you sow." if you stand by the river of life eventually you would see your enemies float down. somehow that phrase consoled me. sometimes in the morning or evening he would stop by my office and gave me snacks he was carrying. he was trying to increase his food intake but the last few months he was losing large amount of weight. within last two weeks, a neighbor found his decaying body inside his apartment; it is estimated he was there lifeless for at least a week. how do you reconcile with such events in life??? death is painful when it is alone and forgotten. may God keep his soul and re-unite him with his dear wife. for what he has done done yesterday, may today and tomorrow is and will be better. we are of ashes, and ashes we shall return.
